[syndicate] speed.

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Le 1 déc. 06, à 19:39, Alan Sondheim a écrit :

>
>
> speed.
>
> i can't slow up. death is an hysteria. i don't care about your gender. 
> i
> send out work as soon as it's done. i make work as soon as i think of 
> it.
> i read as fast as i can. i watch news and practice music while i read. 
> i
> know if i slow up i'll die. i know there will be a missive or missile 
> here
> in this space that will not be sent. i know the missive will be the 
> tag or
> curlicue. i know it will be the conjunction of my death. i read the 
> con-
> junction as not both life and death. i read the conjunction as neither
> life nor death. i eat fast. i never sleep properly. i dream theory and
> practice. i hunt on the internet. i shape ride on the internet. i speak
> here and do not speak elsewhere. speech is a privilege. i cannot 
> pronounce
> other languages in proper order. i cannot pronounce the rudiments of
> speech. i breath fast. i get out of breath fast. death promises 
> slowing.
> death does not halt. i watch myself as i speak. i watch myself as i
> remember. i remember remembering. i remember what i have forgotten. i
> watch my brain at work. i remember watching. i know what i forget will 
> be
> my last. i know if i forgot i should be reminded to die. i am afraid of
> being reminded to die. life is a remission. life is under remission. i
> cannot keep up with myself. i watch myself ahead of myself. i am never
> behind. i am always ahead. if i am comfortable with speed i am not 
> speed-
> ing. i must speed into discomfort. i must be beyond myself. i must be
> beyond ahead of myself. i play music fast. i want to get all the music 
> out
> before i can no longer play music. i want to get out this absolute 
> music.
> i want to theorize as bulwark and therapeutic. i want to theorize 
> before i
> can no longer theorize. before i can no longer theorize in complexity. 
> i
> guard my theorization. i guard my brain and my speed. if i think of a
> sentence i say that sentence. if i think of a poem i write that poem. 
> if i
> have an idea i write that idea. if i think of a video i make that 
> video. i
> make that video when i think of the video. i edit that video while i 
> make
> that video. i am afraid of passing out. i am afraid of dizziness. i 
> speed
> through dizziness. if i stop i will die. if i die this thought will 
> not be
> finished. i must finish this thought. i have a new thought now.
>
>
>
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