[syndicate] Dead

[Alan Sondheim]

Dead


I woke up this morning covered in blood. I fell down the stairs and a sharp 
shard of bone cut into my abdomen. A severe stroke has incapacitated my right 
side. Alzheimer's lesions have almost literally cauterized my memory; I hardly 
recognize Azure. The odd pulsing in my abdomen stems from a hard lump which 
appears to be growing. When I try to stand my legs collapse under me. My stools 
are bloody. I've been so dizzy I can hardly walk across the room. I'm 
constantly sweating under the bed-clothes. I tried to call Azure but could 
hardly speak. I fell on the floor and lost consciousness and died. The whole 
bathroom is covered with blood. There are spots in front of my eyes everywhere. 
I can't see anymore. Help me up. My arms are tingling. My brain is swelling; 
the pain is horrible. My heart is beating so fast it's bursting. I can't 
breath. I'm gasping for breath. I'm about to go unconscious. I'm too dizzy to 
stand up. My heart's stopped beating. It's permanent. I'm dead. There's an 
unbelievable pain in my lower abdomen. My stomach's in knots. I'm falling over. 
I'm crawling to the door. I die before I reach the door. There's a white light 
but the light fades. The pain is too great. I can't think about anything. I 
call Azure's name. I think I called it. I can't remember about anything. I 
can't stand up. I can't be here. My chest is torn in two. I can't see anything. 
My ears filled with screams. The screams may be mine. I don't want to die. I 
really don't want to die. The right side of my body is gone. I'm bleeding from 
my mouth. I can't move. I'm dead.