failure

[Alan Sondheim]

failure

another in the final series of sped-up surfers off a California beach from
found webcam images.
i want the summer of my life.
in an attempt to regain this, over and over again, i imagined myself surf-
ing in these oceans: utterly useless.
it's like repetitive dreaming, over and over again, but nothing _takes._
in fact there's no reason to look at the video, which can only be a
failure.
on the other hand, the impulse itself, that loss among water, Theweleit.
philosophical immersion, fluid mechanics of Irigaray, Lingis (Excesses).
but a tawdry image, far from the madding crowd, isolated, numerical
infinitesimals juggled in a depleted style. (once this might have been
fun. once this might have been unusual. 1898, for example, Lumiere, for
example.)
the point, punctum, is the dream of immersion and its digital decay.
http://www.asondheim.org/summer.mov
and my own weakness although Gidget was a jew.