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integer at www.god-emil.dk
integer at www.god-emil.dk
Thu Mar 14 11:48:34 CET 2002
>Dear Netochka,
How many sensations does a dark road at twilight evoke +?
[thus loop nr. 19 begins its gentle + not so gentle unfolding ...
[to untie the world knot biensur
>Thank you for your messages.
Love has given us language. self. thinking. the origins of information.
+ the r[i|ea]ches of knowing.
>Please allow me a follow up question:
With pleasure. [this is the paradox
>You say that Nato.0+55 is NOT your software,
Nor consciousness mine is.
I make a gift of it to you.
>You say that Nato.0+55 is NOT your software,
`All the cool girls wear NN`
- http://www.m9ndfukc.org/data/noisz/love.songs.central.north.kosovo.mp3
>yet according to what I've heard and read.
If practice did not make perfekt, nor habit ekonomize the expense
of nervous + muskular energie .... i want 2. does that mean you do not eat.
what about your 7 years.
[pupil (lazy)
If an akt became no easier after being kompleted several times, if the careful
direction of consciousness were necessary to its accomplishments in each
occasion, it is evident that the whole activity of a lifetime might be
confined to 1 and\or 2 deeds.
>Please
With practice conscious control becomes automatic. fast.
easy. and
<accurate +?
very. accurate.
and ...
<affordable +?
free
>explain to me
Remember +? I make a gift of it to you
[pardon my IQ - which as everything else about me is surprisingly close to normal.
>what your affiliation with Nato.0+55 is (I'd love nothing
>more than
ACCURATE information
>give my readers ACCURATE information, which means that,
Just
that.
>in this
>very instance,
Something rippled through your cataract of notes.
Restricted to the necessary ones +?
>I
hou matter bekomes imagination
>neeed ACCURATE answers from you--
prologueee:
There are 3 mysteries.
awareness.
self.
stories.
Despite popular opinion (in _our modern epok the polizei must take into
konsideratie the distrakzie ov the populazie) mysteries can be approached:
gently.
The neural adaptations that have led to love
are behind the emergence of higher order consciousness [consciousness of consciousness]
Once higher order consciousness begins to emerge
a self may be constructed from social + affective relationships.
[a self extends beyond the biologically based animal.
A self liberates imagination [nn's occupation is +?] + opens thought to the
v a S t
domain
ov metaphor.
At times (e.g. moments of intense crisis) it may even lead to
temporary escape from the temporal shackles of the remembered present
[whilst remaining conscious
It is a paradox that as conscious beings we cannot fully rid our selves
of higher order consciousness, leaving only the event-driven rush of primary
consciousness.
This is the state mystics aim toward.
`I am now the circulation of meaning, of the eternal possibility,
communication as a being.
Don't give me a name, I'll disappear,
a child, an idiot, a madman,
a name without a name closed in my world.
I want to be free to wish, to wish to disappear,
in a pulsation, blended with you,
my heavenly lover.
You change my self into
pure energy, into a fluid, a rush, a pulsation of love.
Without fences, without name, without meaning.
only the lively movement of a double being`
>even though
CLI86.L86.343N
<therefore
You have a thought +?
<It is meaningless to speak
<until language is acquired
A thought +?
>even though
Einstein's most creative thoughts did not involve words.
<Sentiments contain ideas +?
Konsider memory...
<We are prisoners of being.
`thebestthingisnotbeingborn beingnothing thenextbestthingis ...`
beingprecedesdescribingselectionprecedeslogicdoingprecedesunderstanding
>even though your e-mail
>art form is very beautiful...).
`it is a misery to stretch an empty hand and receive nothing
but it is hopelessness if i stretch an empty hand + find none
to receive`
>even though your e-mail
>art form is very beautiful...).
http://www.cafe-tasse.be/
>Also,
[just looking ...
>I've heard that your birth name was Rebecca Wilson and that you
>changed it legally to Netochka Nezvanova. Is it true?
Truth is natural. We come into this world innocent, and therefore
perceive things as they should be, rather than how they are.
It is at this time we feel most blessed. To begin feeling
young again, we must begin with the most basic step of all;
the daily ritual of ...
<reading +?
komfortable +?
i imagine that every historian is similarly
affected when he begins to record the events of
some period and wishes to portray them sincerely.
where is the center of events, the common standpoint
around which they revolve and which gives them cohesion?
in order that something like cohesion, something like causality,
that some kind of meaning might ensue and that it can in some way
be narrated, the historian must invent units, a hero, a nation [of ],
an idea, and he must allow to happen to this invented unit what has
in reality happened to the nameless.
if it is so difficult to relate connectedly a number of events
which have really taken place and have been attested, it is in my case
much more difficult, for everything becomes questionable as soon
as i consider it closely, everything slips away and dissolves,
just as our community, the strongest in the world, has been able
to dissolve.
there is no unit, no center, no point around which the wheel revolves.
our journey to the east and our league, the basis of our community,
has been the most important thing, indeed the only important thing
in my life, compared with which my own individual life has appeared
completely unimportant. and now that i want to hold fast to and describe
this most important thing, or at least something of it, everything is
only a mass of separate fragmentary pictures [tzzzzz] which have been
reflected in something, and this something is
my self, this mirror
2. how many sensations does a dark road at twilight evoke?
3. suddenly i could bear the uncertainty + suspense no longer.
i hastened to the section chattorum res gestae, looked for my subdivision
and number and stood in front of the part marked with my name. this was a niche,
and when i drew the thin curtain aside i saw that it contained nothing written.
it contained nothing but a figure. an old and worn-looking model made from
wood or wax in pale colors. it appeared to be a kind of deity or barbaric idol.
at first glance it was entirely incomprehensible to me. it was a figure that really
consisted of two; it had a common back. i stared at it for a while, disappointed
and surprised. then i noticed a candle in a metal candle stick fixed to the wall
of the niche. a match-box lay there. i lit the candle and the strange double figure
was now brightly illuminated.
only slowly did it dawn upon me.
only slowly and gradually did i begin to suspekt and then perceive what it was intended to
represent.
it represented a figure which was my self, and this likeness of my self was unpleasantly
weak and half-real. it had blurred features, and in its whole expression there was
something
unstable, weak, dying or wishing to die, and looked rather like a piece of sculpture which
could be
called "Transitoriness" or "Decay", or something similar. On the other hand, the other
figure which was joined to mine to make one, was strong in color and form, and just as i
began to realize whom it resembled, namely the servant and president leo, i discovered
a second candle in the wall and lit this also.
i now saw the double figure representing leo and myself, not only becoming clearer
and each image more alike, but i also saw that the surface of the figures was transparent
and that one could look inside as one can look through the glass of a bottle or vase.
inside the figures i saw something moving, slowly, extremely slowly,
in the same way that a snake moves that has fallen asleep.
something was taking place here, something like a very slow,
smooth but continuos flowing or melting; indeed, something melted or
poured across from my image to that of leo's. i perceived that my image
was in the process of adding to and flowing into leo's, nourishing
and strengthening it. it seemed that, in time, all the
substance from one image would flow into the other and only one would remain: leo.
he must grow, i must disappear.
as i stood there and looked and tried to understand what i saw,
i recalled a short conversation that i once had with leo during
the festive days at bremgarten. we had talked about the creations
of poetry being more vivid and real than the poets themselves.
the candles burned low and went out.
i was overcome by an infinite weariness and desire to sleep,
and i turned away to find a place
where i could lie down and sleep.
>Finally,
Just see me +?
>could you send me a digital picture of yourself to illustrate the
>story?
Oui ... are you familiar with a Ganzfeld +?
... after gazing into a frosty field of snowy white
arctic explorers report experiencing a form of snow blindness.
In 1930 psychologists discovered that when humans gazed into
a featureless field of vision (a ganzfeld), all kolor would soon
drain from the field of vision, after which visual experience
itself would fade.
What shape is a snow flake +?
>I would need a high-resolution format.
1. the swastika depiktz 2 bodies lokked in 1 genital embrace.
2. cosmic egg fertilized + divided.
3. multi logical art is fakt.
4. light is the lightest.
made of shadows and colours, easily mutating +
gently adapting to our land \ m9nd scapes, light (human)
is the lightest of materials in existence--the most ductile, simplest and most
economical.
it offers us the possibility of personalising + animating
each day as 1 gift ... and so hand in hand we build up up
a scenography of our life in our own image--variable as our moods,
welcoming as ...
http://www.m9ndfukc.org/data/picz/dg/ekxped!z!e.jpg
5. a dokument ov wars or more particularly a dokument of battles lost
6. http://www.m9ndfukc.org/data/filmz/margiela.00.jpg
http://www.m9ndfukc.org/data/filmz/margiela.02.jpg
7.
8.
>could you send me a digital picture of yourself to illustrate the
>story?
The NN.book - NETOCHKA NEZVANOVA [http://www.eusocial.com]
amply illustrates NN in photo.graphs + geno.graphs + nato.graphs.
Officially (I say so v.modestly at this time), it signals* the
inauguration of the bio.journal + depicts the thread of unity.
Likewise, the most advanced polymer gel technologies are utilized in its fabrication.
The book** is wear-able, deform-able, memory-aware, klone-aware, tear-proof, scratch-resistant,
FDA-approved. hypo-allergenic + extremely smooth
* trust what you feel
** dimensions = 2 meters
among pure.luxury it inkorporatez operator.spun
rekombinant body + domicile furnishings + s.cells
In the interim - the future needed 1 beginning
http://www.m9ndfukc.org/data/picz/lm
>Thanks a lot for your cooperation.
What kolor are my eyes illuminated +?
>Best,
The best snowy white, yes.
[loop #19 komplet ->
`listening is a magnetik + strange thing, a kreative force.
the friends who listen to us are the ones we move toward,
and we want to sit in their radius. when we are listened to,
it creates us, makes us unfold + expand`
beyond the veil of dreams in
the land of infinoumena.
dripping into another body to another world
that this world is watching. |
rainfull + hydrated
-> tttthhhhe brrrraaaaiiiiinn rrrreeeeqqqquuuuiiiirrrrrrreeeeess
vvvvvaaaaaarrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
ability!!!!!!!!i!!i!!!!! ....
..... NN - it is at this time we feel most blessed.
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\ \/ i should like to be a human plant
\/ __
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i will shed leaves in the shade
\_\ because i like stepping on bugs
*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--
Netochka Nezvanova nezvanova at eusocial.com
http://www.eusocial.com
@ the end of each day ...
@ the beginning of each morning ...
*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*--*-- --*--*--*--*--*--*--
It is a paradox that as conscious beings we cannot fully rid our selves
of higher order consciousness, leaving only the event-driven rush of primary
consciousness.
\ paranteza open
in Russian, the word "Will" means the same as "Freedom".
paranteza kloze \
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